I've lived my life by those words. Once I get married, then... As soon as I have children, then.... When the kids are in school, then... Once the kids graduate, then... As soon as the debt is paid off, then..
I'm a goal-oriented person. When I want to achieve something, I carefully chart a course of action to achieve my objective. For me, my daily life has been no different. I make lists, create schedules, and determine my objective. I feel a deep sense of satisfaction seeing my tasks checked off the list and knowing another day wasn't wasted - or was it?
Was my life really improved yesterday because my task list was completed? Did my circumstance improve because I created another 1-year budget complete with monthly calendars? Were my children truly blessed by a mother that was more concerned with completing her task list and presenting an image of perfection than truly being 100% present in their lives? If only I could go backwards and right all the wrongs and bask in the moments that I missed while looking forward to when...
While there's nothing wrong with planning, there's a serious flaw with my type of existence. By focusing my energies & efforts solely on the future, I'm failing to fully experience NOW. By failing to experience NOW, I'm missing out on the life I've been given while waiting to arrive at the life that I desire.
Psalm 118:24 This is the day the Lord has made; We will rejoice and be glad in it.
Today, not tomorrow. Present, not future. Not once, as soon as, or when - NOW.
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